7 Mar

How long can you last without feeling genuine love?  It feeds the soul and sustains a level or normalcy that is needed to survive the day to day shit of life.  Our lives are easy, we deal with work we don’t like, fear the fading of health and aging. Violence surrounds us on a variety of extremes which we discuss and avoid the best we can. Outside of friends and family that you love and would do anything for, who do you love?

I’m emotionally devoid of love and try everyday to suppress the feeling of its necessity. It is out of our control.  We don’t chose who we love but why can’t we find those that will fulfill it. A large percentage of society is either in a relationship or married. Why not me? Why not you? Why aren’t they in love.

I want to feel something.  I want to be moved.  Who is that person that is going to do that? Is it me that needs to change, open up to allow those feelings? Is it that other person that will surprise me with their idiosyncrasies and skewed outlook on life that will effect me?  Am I selfish?

The feeling we had falling in obsessive high school love that first time, why does it diminish and disappear overtime? Broken Hearts? When we fall in love and the person crushes us by leaving, cheating etc spiraling us into longing.  Is that what leaves us empty.

Is it all of us or is it just a few? Is it just me?

I know I’ll give back endlessly, I hope I will. I want to connect with someone on the “soulmate” level.  I want everyone to have this feeling.  It will lead to a fulfilled life we all should share.

Sharing moments in bed close to the one you trust and love are not to be taken for granted.  If even for a short period, enjoy them, appreciate them. Their puriety won’t last forever, and if they do, you are the luckiest couple in the world.

Why do I crave it? As it been to long or do I really need it to help me get through life?

Why is it all to hard? It could be harder.

Where is she?


4 Responses to “Parched”

  1. Brad April 12, 2011 at 2:15 am #

    I think love is something that is addictive and certainely feels amazing when you experience it. But I believe that it isn’t the best way to self-fulfillment. As you hinted at, love isn’t sustainable, and those who depend on it for happiness won’t live stable happy lives. It’ll be constant ups and downs that will leave them bitter in the end. Like you said I do believe each heartbreak leaves us a bit more empty inside. It’s better to form goals centered around our interests outside of love. Start a business and reach your self-potential, or something along those lines. Along the way you’ll meet someone who shares your passion for what you do and you’ll have a relationship based on something more solid than love.

    • thoughtpatrol April 12, 2011 at 5:46 am #

      So you don’t believe in love, or do you think love is attainable but isn’t worth the risk of the pain it will surely cause? Do people actually feel love or is it just obsession driven by wanting to believe the fantasy of perfection is better than reality?

  2. Mik April 15, 2012 at 8:26 am #

    So would “the best way to self-fulfillment” be the same for everyone? If not,then love could be and is “the best way” for many.

  3. Mik April 15, 2012 at 8:30 am #

    Parched is pure beauty. Thank you .

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